i mentioned before that i lost a friend in the tuscaloosa tornado. we weren't the best of friends, but i knew enough about loryn for it to really break my heart and understand everyone else's pain. i knew her favorite artist was beyonce, i knew her love for alabama was probably one of the strongest loves for a football team ever, and plenty more. and today, i had a very special day. i hadn't talked to loryn a lot. today i woke up remembering that she was in my dream last night but for the life of me i can't remember the dream! not one thing, i just remember seeing her face.
i have felt God very close to me today, i can feel his arms around me completely, like a huge bear hug. for my world literature class today we had to read excerpts from matthew. matthew is a huge book, and the excerpts we read made today even more of a wake up call.
**matthew 5: the teaching of Jesus: the sermon on the mount. highlighted "blessed are they that mourn: for they shall be comforted." i bookmarked this verse not long after my grandfather passed away over a year ago because it is something so COMFORTING to have knowledge of. and then with the tornado and gracie's mom it really opened my eyes.
**matthew 7: "lay not up for yourselves treasures upon earth, where moth and rust doth corrupt, and where thieves break through and steal: but lay up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust doth corrupt, and where thieves do not break through nor steal: FOR WHERE YOUR TREASURE IS, THERE YOUR HEART WILL BE ALSO!" my favorite passage, after my house was broken into and my laptop was stolen, i really thought my life was ending. i relied so much on something that should mean so little to me when there is somewhere else my treasure will be worth way more than any macbook or flat screen tv!
**matthew 27-28: the trial and crucifixion of Jesus and the Resurrection. anytime i read this story in the bible it brings tears to me! to know that i am worthy of Jesus dying for my sins is almost more than i can handle. who am i that Jesus would do that for me! but i know that i am a child of God and he wants nothing more than to put his arms around me and protect me from this harmful world.
these really grabbed my attention today. just reading them i felt so honored that i get to serve such an amazing God! that i am one of his children! and from the moment i realized that i was so blessed, i haven't felt God let go of me yet. it's a bear hug i have never felt before, it's almost breathtaking!!
and then today at therapy my day got a little more interesting. halo came on, loryn LOVED beyonce! and halo was played at her visitation. instantly i tweeted "halo just came on!! hey loryn! #prayfortuscaloosa" i haven't heard that song but maybe once since april, and to hear it on the same day i had a dream about her and then feeling god, wow, i can't even describe it. and then right after halo, if i die young came on. now this one ties me SOO close to gracie, anytime i heard it i felt like i was always with her! anytime it comes on i always text her and tell her that i have heard it. and then of course loryn always pops in my head too! i rode by where loryn lived today, said a prayer while i was there. and then i come home to find my aunt glenda already home work. i told her about my day and how i could feel god all day, and just described what i wrote to yall. she said she has felt the same way today, life something is in the air. like this feeling is being felt for a reason.
i don't know how my life will play out. i'm not promised that i will make it to see shaun alexander speak tonight, i'm not promised tomorrow, i'm not promised to live to be 100, but i am promised an eternity in heaven with my amazing savior! and honestly, that is more than enough! it's enough to know that as long as i have changed ONE persons life, i have done something amazing. it's enough to know that i can look back on my life and say i lived everyday to the fullest! as i sit and write this i can't describe to you in words they way my heart feels, but having my worship music in the background and to feel God's love is one of the most rewarding moments in my life. i don't know what God's plan is right now, but i know he is telling me something and i am ready with my arms wide open to do whatever he has planned.
this was a very random post but i just needed to talk about my day and how close to God i feel! i can only hope and pray that all of you who read this can feel the same arms around you like i have had around me today! may God bless you in many ways!
much love!
disney allie :)
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